Strength

There are so many people that are starting to announce the pregnancy of their second child. This has not been easy. As we try to get pregnant with our first, others are on number two.  I feel like the strength that I had to get through, this is slowly depleting.  I need prayers. I need strength.

Spartans Win!!!

Last weekend we had such a blast down in Indy.  The past few years, Brett and I  talked about going down to Indy for the Big 10 Basketball Tournament.  It was a beautiful weekend and to top it all off, MSU are Big 10 Champs!!  Because of this win, MSU got a number one seed in the March Madness Bracket! I'm a little excited :)

We had beautiful weather and even better company.  We are so blessed to be surrounded by great and supportive friends and family. 

Quick update on me.  I am in great spirits! (I think the weather helps :))  I know that God had a plan for me and I have turned this over to Him.   I thought I was going to be off the Metformin this past week, but I will be on it till May 4.   This is when I will see Dr Jarrett again and we will come up with "Plan F".  I will admit, I think the Metformin is working.  My cycles used to be about 20-22 days and now they were 27 days last month and 29 days this past cycle! This is great progress for me.  I ask for prayers as we try like crazy these next couple of months.  I would love to see Dr Jarrett in May with great news and tell him we wont need him anymore :) 

I would also like to thank EVERYONE for their prayers and support.  YOU guys keep us going.  YOU guys give us hope when we feel like we have none.  Thank You to everyone for your facebook messages.  They mean the world to me! THANK YOU!!!! 

Moving Forward

My process now...I am currently and almost done with, taking a drug called Metformin.  The drug is actually used for people with diabeties, but what Dr Jarrett is hoping it will do is,  keep my surgar levels down, which will in turn keep my testosterone levels down and then hopefully my body will produce a full folicule.   He wanted me on this for three months and "try" within those three months, with the hopes that it would work.  My three months are up on March 12 :(  So, I  will meet with the doctor and figure out the next step. 

A girl who is also on this "Journey" sent me a poem last night that I wanted to share with everyone.  This poem left me full of tears.  Every thought and feeling, for anyone that has gone through this, or is currently going through it, is stated in this poem.

I dream about a child to come
A child to share our home
A home of toys, and swings, and games,
Of laughter, hugs, and love.

I dream of a baby's crib and toys
Bottles, diapers, and things
Strollers, walkers, a bassinet,
And lullabies to sing.

I dream of having a little child
Even the "terrible twos"
Teaching, guiding, and loving
Seeing what he or she can do.

I dream of sending a child to school
Being in Brownies or Scouts
To watch him learn and grow each day
Seeing what life is about.

I dream of Christmas morning
Presents around a tree
Singing, sharing, a precious time
Will it ever be?

I dream of summer vacations
Children crammed in a family car
Going camping, having picnics
Sleeping under the stars.

In my dream of motherhood
I do not now have a part
I pray my dream comes true in life
And not just in my heart.

Hope

Baby, I love you, though God has not given you to me;
I spend my whole life learning patience and that is now what I am trying to be.

I love you though we have not met, and though you are not yet real;
Somehow you are in every thought, and love is all I feel.

You're a dream I didn't know I had, a prayer I didn't know I would pray;
A song that I would sing to you, if only you would stay.

We want you in our life to share a love that is so strong;
And we will continue to wait for you-it does not matter how long.

We believe God's perfect plan so you will come when the time is right;
And though you are not real yet, you are already Mommy's delight.

I want to hold you in my arms and teach you to be great;
 I want you to be our legacy, our destiny, our fate.

Your daddy and I love you and we cant wait for the day;
When we can kiss you gently and you will not go away.

We have a wonderful marriage, maybe this hardship is our test;
But holding hands together, we continue to pray for the best.

That you will grace our lives with greatness and make us a family;
So the love that is too much for two can soon be shared by three.
                                                                  -By: Kristine Ireland Waits-