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At a very young age I've learned that life wasnt fair. I've learned that bad things happen to good people no matter how hard they pray or believe. I've learned that there are things that happen in life and we will never know why.
July marks our 5th YEAR of trying to pregnant. 5 years!! Lord, what have I done, what havent I done, I just dont understand?! Get me off this emotional roller coaster! I have put on a brave face, an "I'm ok" face for so long, but I cant wear it for much longer. This isnt ok, I am not ok. Every month that goes by, is another month lost. WHY!!!!???? I appologize to Brett that I'm not able to give him children. I'm not able to give our parents Grandchildren. As I watch friends and family get married, I cant help but think, whos going to get pregnant first, them or me? Lord, will it ever be my turn?
I am currently on a rest cycle. We will be taking a break this cycle. No meds, no Hope to be lost. We will wait till the end of July, or the next cycle to see what Dr Jarrett has in store for us. For now, I will be pulling myself together and getting ready for next month. I will be trying to get Hope and positivity back in my life.
